Fistful Of Sand

So I came across this today! This is so cool! The third and fourth most important people to ever live recongnized at the same time! We can learn so much from these two men, and we should honor them whenever possible. They shaped left politics in a radical, yet positive, way.

Long live peace and the pursuit of liberty.
Long live the Proletariat.

Wow, so high school has absolutly flown by! Sometimes I can't actually grasp that I'm a Senior already. I've already been in school for six weeks. I always had the impression that, with the exception of the Senior exit project, your senior year would be a breeze compared to your other three years. Uhm... I'm finding that to not be so true. In fact, it looks like I'll be involved in my school repsonsibilities more this year than any previous one.

So there's TONS of stuff I HAVE to complete (and pass) in order to recieve my diploma this Spring. Things such completing my Senior Research Project, Senior Exit Project, On Demand Writing, Portfolio, community service, and passing Health & P.E.

My English teacher already has us started on our Research Project. We pretty much have to read a novel, do half a dozen pointless activities with it, and then type an 8 page essay. How lovely. I chose to read The Jungle by Upton Sinclair.

My class also completed the On Demand Writing testing this week. The Board of Education decided to have Seniors do it now as opposed to in the Spring since, well, we really don't care (or try) once the end of school is that near (by then either you're graduating or you're not.) I enjoy writing...but...that was totally a non-fun four hours.

Health is... meh... dumb. I hate it. It's not as bad as it could be, but I still hate it. The state* has no right to instruct me on how to behave physically, emotionally, and socially. I'm 17, and I'll pretty much do as I please by this point. I'm also still trying to see if I can do some alternative to P.E.... gah, I'm dreading that so much.

College. Still debating rather I want to go or not. Or, if I do, when. Thursday I went to a college fair at Thomas Moore and got more out of it than I thought I would. Figure if I attend college I'll stay in Kentucky since I get my KEES money, plus tuition is cheaper anyway if I go to school here. Speaking of college, I picked up a ACT packet today. Woo... let's hope I can score over a 20. Any advice? Not that you can really 'prepare' for an exam like the ACT anyway, though--It's so random.

If I don't go to college I'd either settle in Canada as soon as possible or bum my way around Europe and Japan for a few years, jumping from one intentional community to another.

So yeah... I've pretty much been rambling here. Point being, I've got quite a few decisions I've gotta make, and a bunch of stuff to keep up with in school.

*Country; United States of America

Did anyone else catch this a few weeks ago? I'm not a big Robot Chicken fan, but this was hilarious! If you're a Star Wars fan, watch this! It's about half-an-hour.

Ani? Ani bo banny!?!? Wooo! Aniii! I love you Ani!

I bet this is how my cousin Chris acts during a good game of Starcraft haha.

Have a few posts as drafts, but nothing big finished for tonight, sorry. . This post has been sitting as a draft for some time now--Thought I'd post it.

Take the quiz yourself too, and tell your results in a comment. Even if you're not an anarchist, it'd still be interesting to see what you scored.

(And, yes, I am a Christian Anarchist)

You scored as Christian Anarchist. Christian
anarchism is one of the oldest anarchist philosophies, arguably
dating back to the early Christian church. Christian anarchists
emphasise non-violence and oppose the state as God is the only
legitimate source of authority. Key thinkers include the Russian
novelist Leo Tolstoy.

Ahh... yeah. So today I stayed home from school. Wasn't feeling very good for some reason. Slept, ate, and watched Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. (Chances are that'll be removed thanks to the "The Great Anime Purge" )

Feeling frustrated lately. Dunno. Life's dumb. Hah... No, really, it is.

I'm constantly fighting apathy. It's quite ridiculous. On the inside I'm by no means apathetic. On the outside, however... Well, indeed, I'm pretty inert.

Guess if I had a "New Years resolution" it'd be to kill my apathy.--Mentally, politically, spiritually, and yes, even physically.

I suppose why I won't kill my apathy is because once I do, what could/would/should I possibly do with my "new found" enthusiasm? I've been thinking a lot lately about what I'm going to do when I get out of high school. How I'm going to survive (I'm by no means living with or taking any support from my parents. I refuse to be indentured to them. There already seems to be no amount of "money" that I could ever "pay back" what I "owe" to my Mom as it is now.)

Again, what I will be doing, and what I want to do.--I have no idea what any of those will be. That's a very uneasy thought for me. On the inside I want to change the freaking world. On the outside I just want to get my own little place and make sure I have some food and a video game to play every night. Which one of those will be my fate? Is "fate" even real?-- Or do I truly control the outcome of my life? Is my life set in stone and I don't even know it? Does God already know what will become of me and my life?--What path I'll take.

I'm nearly seventeen. And in in a little over a year I'll be out of high school (if Coach Rosell will flipping pass me in P.E. that is).

No, seriously, I'm about to freaking have an ulcer. What the heck is gonna happen to me? Will I be some loser begging for rent money on the sidewalk, clinging to his ramblings about Anarchy? Or some desperate half-out-of his mind guy thrown in jail for alleged sedition? Or could I make it in the arts like I want? Maybe none of it matters, because I believe Jesus could very well be back within the next few years.--But I could be wrong about that.

See! I'm not so apathetic on the inside. Oh... blah. Not worth it.

And worst of all, my own demise will probably be my own fault. Probably due to my own ignorance.--My own drive for absolute independence, liberty, and freedom from all of society's fetters. Sure, there's no freaking way I could stay with my Mom... There's just no way. We're complete opposites. And when I'm eighteen, I'm out of her 'jurisdiction' (she's already obviously upset that I'm out of her influence), and probably won't like some (actually, quite a few of) the choices I'll make. But my Dad, I could totally stay with him. He keeps saying "Now, don't worry about things so much! Just come stay at my house when you get out of high school. Go to NKU or Morehead or something. We've had that room upstairs there for you since.. well... you started coming here regularly. Really, it's no big deal."

But will I live with my Dad? No, I won't. I've got to NOT go to college, drop away from mainstream society, cut tons of people off in my life, throw my health to the wind, walk everywhere, and surrender my most likely pathetic financial situation to the tax and rent collectors.

Why do that you ask? Because I'd rather live like that than share the fate of becoming a fake and phoney yuppie like everyone else in this country.--In my family.

Apathy.. heh. What a crazy, dominating emotion you are.

Guess it's just my apathetic way to be, eh? (That's one of the best AMVs I've EVER seen, by the way.)

Peace.

I can't wait for this movie to come out!!!

Early last summer I came accross the hilarious, yet factual, mock documentary "How To Be: Emo"

I was suprised and pleased with how incrediably well done the '50s style short film looked. And satisfied with, for the most part, the accurate information on both Emo the music genre, and the subculture that follows it.

Ah, well anyway, the other day I stumbled accross some site that mentioned how the creator of the mock documentary has in the works a much better, full length, reimagined version of the film.

Behold, "how to be: emo"

If you feel like it, go watch the original short. And watch (my personal favorite) trailer for the upcoming film.

Need to find out when and how I'll be able to see it!

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